Dear dearest father:
I have not been able to go to sleep for the past two days for some unknown reason, yet I am still standing, I am very thankful for that, though a little ambivalence embedded.
Father, I am also also very angry and obssessed with this source of anger but yet am trying to control it.
Dear father, I feel like I am going to blow up to pieces or explode.
I've since seen that life is a compromise, and that life is made of people and of communication amongst these people, but sometimes it's more complicated and I feel so tired about being proactive. But I do realize that of course, we all have our own problems as individuals and that just because I have to deal with things doesn't mean that the world is being unfair to me. I want everything to be the same so I don't have to find solutions to problems that arise due to changing circumstances, but such is unreasonable and resists the very core of the dynamic human nature that evolves around adaptations and change. Maybe if it were up to me, my descendants would still be categorized as chimpanzees today. Father, I realize that I am a conflicted individual who retraces her steps and walks in circles at times like a lost child in a circus. Father, I am having a hard time finding balance between study and fun, rest and labor, intensity and peace.
So father, give me advise and wisdom
I have not been able to go to sleep for the past two days for some unknown reason, yet I am still standing, I am very thankful for that, though a little ambivalence embedded.
Father, I am also also very angry and obssessed with this source of anger but yet am trying to control it.
Dear father, I feel like I am going to blow up to pieces or explode.
I've since seen that life is a compromise, and that life is made of people and of communication amongst these people, but sometimes it's more complicated and I feel so tired about being proactive. But I do realize that of course, we all have our own problems as individuals and that just because I have to deal with things doesn't mean that the world is being unfair to me. I want everything to be the same so I don't have to find solutions to problems that arise due to changing circumstances, but such is unreasonable and resists the very core of the dynamic human nature that evolves around adaptations and change. Maybe if it were up to me, my descendants would still be categorized as chimpanzees today. Father, I realize that I am a conflicted individual who retraces her steps and walks in circles at times like a lost child in a circus. Father, I am having a hard time finding balance between study and fun, rest and labor, intensity and peace.
So father, give me advise and wisdom
father, I pray for more strength for all of us, including me, and more energy, so that I don't fight with droopy eyelids and narrow eyes.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
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